Tuesday, June 2, 2009

TORMENT

Fear, I feel

The world crushing down on me

Stones after stones

God, I’m so afraid

My heart wants to leap out, my conscience my nerve my blood

Boils and trembles in a violent orgy

Ha ha ha ha I am dying ha ha ha ha

Ha ha ha ha I am crying ha ha ha ha

I wanna jerk off, my intestines feel heavy

They ache, they ache and dance

Please somebody help me

I am alive over here, why I am

Still alive?

The sky, the sky, the sky, look at it!

It’s so fucked up, so bright…why?

My sky….

Somebody help me…..my sky!

Oblivion

Hey, do you know…

I

Die every day? Huh?

And

In the early morning clouds, I rise from my graves…

Once again

I scream from beyond the mirrors

Bleeding my fist against the unbreakables

Days and decades swim by…

And I cry

Salty droplets of shattered dreams

Crawl out of my eyes, endless…

Was it like this everytime?

Yes, I guess

It was

Ahh I feel,

My soul shuddering underneath…

Fluttering helpless…

Like hummingbird wings

Thousand swords of an ancient lore

Trembling over my heart

Monsters and demons prowling in hordes

Underneath dark dunes…

Run, run, I tell myself…

But my feet…they sink somewhere

Dark and sweaty

I swallow, but its only air

Like a bubble of fear bouncing up – down

It hurts, like sleeping over a sawblade

Gnawing away my flesh

In chunks

Wrapped in a concrete coffin

I stroll around Disneyland

Happy, so happy…

Everybody is!

Like a great butcherplace this world is…

All those meat, fresh n bouncy

Hanging around, so happy they are!

My brain turns into

Molten lead

Somehow numb I become

Slow

At my feet, I see

Inches away, the endless doom awaits

The oblivion awaits.